Just a short note to oneself.

Self.  Yes you the guy looking at this screen.  Pay attention please.  So it is hard to say where things are going to go in the next little while and it is somewhat hard to say how to control the thoughts and emotions that will come.  It may be a change in things or maybe a simple opportunity that never was.

Now the struggle.  How does one help/motivate a 15/almost 16 year old?  I am finding my thoughts dwelling on my sons lack of interest and vision.  He is proving more of a challenge to me all the time.  Sometimes kids especially your own will show you the things you like least about yourself.  You know the things that you want to change.  Well he has chosen to demonstrate this very concept to me in the past month.  Taking an I do not care approach to anything and everything.  Like there is a hill in front of me so maybe I will turn around and go back down.  What the hell is that?  Frustrated and confused to say the least.  I know he has a sharp mind I have seen it in action and it is a powerful thing.  But it is matched with a person that sees life as something he will get to later.  This will probably be the biggest challenge I have to date, how to find a connection to get my son to see his life is full of options and possibilities, he only needs to apply himself to them and he can succeed.

<sigh> I am not a parent that stops, nor am I a parent that will sit by and take this as that opportunity to let him flounder.  But as with many things in life it is all in the approach and delivery.   Let's see if we can get this together.

To those out there in the world I am about to wake the sleeping high school student, a creature many fear, others just open the fridge and walk away.


Talk to you soon I think.

Boom shake shake the room!!!!

So we are halfway through the first month of this year.  Yep that is right 2014 is chugging along.  So change.  Got any in your pocket?  Not so much, the demise of the penny has left my pocket rather free of change.  Come to think of it I really enjoy not having all those pennies floating around.

Well I am a couple weeks in and I have been implementing the minor changes that need to happen to make my life a positive and enjoyable time.  I have found that most of the change that I see coming in my life are centred around well being and finding positiveness.  With my hamstring injury last year it became more apparent that I need to find a different way to look at things.  There were other things in 2013 that made me feel reflective.  But in the end it was about what I wanted and needed to do.  With that I have now taken up yoga with Traci.  She being much more flexible than I it really becomes apparent when I am watching myself attempt to bend and flex.  It was very awakening to realize that my flexibility is well on vacation somewhere warm, I think.  I definitely felt the stretching but it felt so great to do that.  I hate to say this but I think we are now a yoga couple....what an odd thing.  If I did not know any better I would suggest it is one of those things that happens because it needs to.  Happiness.

Next on the list is may diet, it is good but not as good as I wanted it to be so I have gone to the world of there is an app for that.  Yes I use an app, why not, it has been on my phone and or iPod for some time and it has been there to show me what I need to keep an eye on.  What am I putting in and what I am putting out in terms of work.  So now that we have that habit in place.  Change time, eat less, feel better about my weight and get in better shape.  Simple change.  It is all there just takes a moment or two of time to reach the goals.

So what else.  Well we are as always amazed by the kids and their world.  The girl is back rockin the Uni world.  First track meet for her this weekend.  She is going to see how the knee feels.  It has been a long road back for her but I think she is ready to go and we hope the best for her.  Grateful she is healthy and back to running which she loves and misses.

The young man?  Well always a subtle joker and sometimes PIA.  But he is ready for final and then the work begins a very daunting semester of core subject, math, science and english.  He is very excited so we will see how it goes.  He is very anti homework but I think he is in for a surprise.

Well that is the summary the thoughts.  Now there are other potential changes coming they will arrive when they are ready.  I feel fantastic and really look forward to the next opportunity.  Always an opportunity.  Have fun, play, jump in the snow.   Better yet start a mini snowball fight..... :)

The train is a comin!!!!!

Hello everyone and welcome back.  The days of January are moving along very quickly already.  It seems quite odd to look back and go hey where did the month go!  But for me the holidays were spent covering the work shift.  I did get a few days the basic ones.  It was actually quite nice to be at work and have a little time to think things through and really get organized.  I actually feel that like I am on top of things and not struggling to keep up.  I am sure that bit of satisfaction will probably pass shortly.  I am still working on the changes in my life.  I have managed to get my exercise routine back, the hamstring felt very good last week at hockey.  I am so glad to be back at it even after all these years of playing this crazy game I love the ice.  If I ever have to stop playing I think I would go crazy.  I think I started at age six that is close to 40 years of this.  I have had any number of great things happen and few not so great things.  I have gentle reminders from my back, neck and knees as to what the game gave me and what I gave back.  But you know I still love playing.

So where are we at?  I think I mentioned the change thing.  The word for this year is change, an attitude change or perspective change.  If life is giving you head winds change your sails.  Change is a strong thing, it is a risk and it is powerful and motivating.  I also believe it can be for right or wrong reasons.  Myself I want to be more positive and move past some of the unimportant things.  I have to change myself but it is all about making positive changes and take control of my life and what I want to be.  The best version of me.  I have also found there is some interesting things that happen when you change something.  People treat you a little different if they can not get you to react to their negativity.  Well, it is a new year and a great time to be here and changing.  Love it!

Photos?  Taken a bunch had some great days out there with the camera still not sure I am ready for my debut in a gallery.  But I have 3 photos in frames now and a I am looking for 1 more to finish the wall.  I can then move on to the next one.  Lyndon and I are going on a vacation for his 16th birthday we have decided to take a trip, taking his grandpa and me with him.  His choice, so more to come on that as we get closer and also maybe some cool photos we are going to an interesting city......apple juice anyone?

Anyway I feel great I feel pumped.  I am back to counting calories and creating a caloric deficit each day!  Cycling in the basement, walking the dog, playing hockey and generally having a great time.

One other potential change and this is a big one, we will see what happens over the next few weeks.  Yeah, we will see.  Remember they phoned me.  So who knows it may be the change a person needs or it may be the change that a person decides is not the best one to make.

Cool Beans everyone!

The end and beginning all in one

It is now 2014 for those of you that have not checked your watch/calendar.  My mistake check your phone, nobody uses a watch anymore.  Time that wonderful thing that we all feel we have so much of but never enough of.

Time is something that is always running out.  Whether we are aware of time or not it is aware us, not.  Time continues to move on and we are just move along by time.

Wow too deep too soon.

Happy New Year everyone!  I hope everyone has had a very safe and wonderful New Year!.  I myself spent a rather quite evening and relaxed.  No real crazy adventures.  Just family which is nice.  I think the thought of going out and spending a bunch of time pushing and shoving to see fireworks just does not excite me.  Weather was a little cold and so it goes.

Well last year I decided to define my New Years resolution with a word rather than a wholesale resolution.  What did you want to change or do.  So I chose a word.  I am working on that word today as well, sort of leaning towards a specific one but will maybe decide in the next day or two no rush, no law in my books saying I need to have it in hand right now.  So with that I am going to go forward with some other thoughts.  Great health, Great Wealth, Great happiness.

I am also going to be pushing myself towards some other things that need to happen, which will maybe help me land on that one word for 2014.

What else, yes the best version of me, I have found that I am doing some things that I feel have helped me improve myself.  Ralph Smart guy I found on youtube, really like some of his thoughts on improving yourself.

I had a moment the other day where I know I hated what I heard and felt I now what I think is wrong and what they think is right.  Now how do I act on this?   I have ways.  I think this year has so many possibilities.  I will achieve a lot things in 2014 and I can see it as a turning point in my life.

My son today shared a view point with me.  Not something that people may equate with unusual but you have to appreciate it when your children start forming their own opinions and you as a parent have to find a way to let them have that opinion.  I was impressed by he thoughts and comments.  I gave him some extra fuel for thought and I could see he was truly thinking about my comments.  Very proud of both my kids.  I know they think and they are very keen to be something more than ordinary.

Some bragging from a parent standpoint, the girls first term marks rocked.  She had a great time at school and I think her marks reflect a person that enjoyed what she studied.

So as I start 2014 and reflect on 2013 I have found a new center.  I feel very grounded and ready.  I am not sure what this is about but I feel very excited for 2014.  I will change in this year, and I think as I close this out that is what I will reveal, my word "change".

To those that I love I wish you great health great wealth and great happiness.

Time moves on and so do we.  Cheers.