One day in your life

One day in your life

The past the present and future all in one.  Never really know do you.  It is something most of us take for granted that tomorrow is coming and we are set on that course.  Looking back at 2013 I tend to agree with the statement that most of us don't live life to the fullest.  I have however found most of my time taking pictures has forced me out into some places I may not normally go.

I was trying to think how this week feels and what emotions does it seem to be bringing up.  Can not really place it yet.  I think it feels like a week where not a lot is critically important and maybe a person can sit back a bit and enjoy.  But that is only a maybe, one never really knows.

I can not help but think about the plunge into renos a bit.  We are still not done but what we have done makes our home better, more comfortable.  Still more to come.  It all takes time.  I heard somebody say if you can survive a reno your relationship can survive anything.  To the point and very true.

Well I see the holiday season on the horizon, ask yourself what matters the most to you?  What could you not live without.  Be honest, do not sugar coat it.  Look inside and see who you really are.  Do you love yourself 100% when you see that person?  Maybe or maybe not.  I know what I want and what I need.  I believe in my heart that there is only a few truly important things one needs.

Happy...what we should all be

Sometimes it feels right.

So who would have thought that a half hour long text discussion with my dad who is in Vietnam could make me feel closer to him.  I think one of the changes I mentioned in my last post about that spark being back may apply.  See, I have found a couple things that I am working on with regards to myself.  One of them involves my attitude and being more open and positive and allowing the negative to move through me and not to dwell on it.  So again, how does that apply to a text conversation?  Well it does because it feels good.  I have to admit it was really nice to chat and I think the thing was he is happy, he is enjoying himself and not just because he is working but because he was having fun and enjoys his time and the people.  So back to that notion of positive, I really love my parents, they are and have been very good parent and grand parents.  Not every thing works out and not everything happens the way I wanted it to.  Yes there are moment but it is a relationship and there are always moments.  I am sure they have a long list of moments where they wanted or may still want to strangle me but hey what are kids for.  So to my dad I am proud to say it was great to chat with you even though you are on the other side of the world and I am sitting here freezing.   It felt good to do that.  That is more to the point, it felt good.  I need more of those feelings.  As the cold and winter descended on us last week I have become slightly bored and struggling to find a way out of it.  This may strike people a little off key, but I have had a couple of Christmases where I was on the depressed side.  I get quite hung up on it.  I struggle to be creative and to find my stride.  As a bit of self admission, I tend to turn to my friend chocolate to cure these melancholy moments.  But I will see what comes along this time.  I have told myself to instead go and do something when those moments hit.  So today I was bored, I went and cleaned up the garage a bit and made dinner.  Not really feeling like working on pictures.  Hey the weather is apparently going to be warm for the next day or two so maybe for Sunday I will get out with the camera and take some photos.  Then maybe some new shots will be produced and posted.  One never knows.

Have a nice night peace and love.

Changes of 2013

Well as I continue to remind myself what was this past year.  2013 saw so many things as per usual, hard to really take it all in but I am starting to look around at things and go wow a lot went on.  Probably one of the biggest changes was my Uncle Rick.  He left us this year and it was and still is one of those things that keeps popping into my mind.  It was his passing that has made me take some further stock in what and who I am.  At his funeral it made me realize I need to change and with that I need to change certain things.  I have started, there are things in motion which when they come to rest we will see what happens.  But the biggest thing was to take on a different attitude towards myself.  I found a bit of light that I think had faded over the years, it is now coming back slowly and starting to shine a little brighter.  That is what loosing my Uncle has done for me, as usual he was always a person to make you think and reflect.  He did it again.  I thank him for that and for the many other things and memories I have from him.

Another big change was sending our daughter off to school.  What a strange event, not tears not sadness just a realization that she is a person that has grown into a great young adult.  I really think that she impresses me so much each time I turn around.  I am looking forward to having her home for the holidays.  I know her energy and laugh will be something to stir up the house again.  Makes me proud.

The young man has also changed, I have not failed to notice that our eyes are just about on the level.  Hard to think that he was a little guy that I picked up and could carry around.  Now I think he could maybe do that to me.  Makes me laugh.  That and with his sister gone we outnumber the girls in the house.

Well change comes whether we like it or not, there is always that momentum.  I remember a saying a friend had on her living room wall.  You can't change the wind but you can adjust your sails.

See what waters we will find in the year that is coming!

Some broken bells....not silver

Oh yeah did we mention winter was coming????

Yes let's reflect on 2013.  The current state of the weather reminds me of spring.  When it flooded like Noah and his Ark were coming back.

I do not want to comment on anything further today.  Winter is hear with snow, wind and cold would rather just go to bed.

Anyway, hope you have a better day weather wise than we are getting.

Some Dala to make your day a little brighter.

I think it is December today....

So I think it is December today.  I am going to make the effort to push through the month and put some reflections of this year.

So I will begin with December 1 and start the reflective moments.  I think the first post I added was about New Years Resolutions.  It was about how hard they are for some and how meaningful or less they are for others.  I found it hard to set some sort of goal or really idea in motion.  I decided rather to choose a word, discipline was that word.  Now having said that the intention was to use the word to reflect on and to ensure that it was a part of the things that I did.  I have no way of know how big of a task it will be to enforce discipline into my life for 365 days.  At this time I am really not sure that I was successful for the entire year but I do think it resonated with me at times during the year. I find that I have become more disciplined in areas.  So I guess it was in some ways a success.

So as December rolls in to Calgary with a blizzard warning, I have my new monthly transit pass tucked into my wallet.  Traci is hammer out the Christmas Cards....hopefully they will go out on time.  I will again put discipline into practice and try to put a little something up to reflect on a year that has had some up hill climbs and some down hill rolls.

For those of you that are interested in you tube I will leave you with something that I have been watching the past couple of weeks.  Infinite Waters, check it out and as they say on their channel, love yourself 100%.

Peace.