Think Big

So always wanted to be a big person.  Yep as a little person in life you grow up wanting to be a big person.  I wanted to be 6'4" and 250.  No question. Never happened. Then I realized as I grew older that maybe not being that large was a good thing.  I credit my spouse with keeping me to a more normal size as I think I could easily have turned into a very large round person.  Yes I could see that happening.  So in thinking big I was thinking I wanted to be that big guy I saw on the street or on tv.  Now I am much happier that I am me a regular size guy with maybe a few pounds that he needs to shed.  I am sooooo happy not to be 6'4.  Well maybe not the tall part.  Anyway I am who I am is what I am saying.  So what is the point of this?  I really have no point but I was just thinking about things as a kid I wanted to be huge, now as an adult I am glad to be where I am.  Funny how your perspective changes.  Anyway, I guess that is about it.

Love yourself 100%!!!!

I feel great right now I feel like I have found a very positive stride.  Oh yeah 2 full days not a soda can in sight!  Working on day 3.   Tough but my goal is to make it 5 full days without a soda.

Cheers.

My first car

Well Happy Valentines day to those of you feeling the love today.  Always enjoy this day it is so nice to have a day where you get to give a few extra kisses and get a few extra back.  It was a little strange as my lovely wife is away but she will be home in another day.  I did manage to have a little of the high quality chocolate left for me, I think she may have had a helper.

So what about my first car?  Somewhat strange that title is it not?  What about the car or what are you driving at?  Well, I thought I would ask you about that first time you got behind the wheel and drove away on your own.  Remember that feeling, you could crank the stereo or simply drive wherever you wanted to go.  I am going to take you way back now as some of you may remember being allowed to get behind the wheel and not have to put on the old seat belt.  Seems like a really bad idea now does it not?  Well as you got better at driving, maybe more adventurous you maybe drove a little fast or did something silly/stupid with your car, maybe drove it a little harder than you should have?  Maybe you did not change the oil or fill it up with gas?  Low tire?  Do I have you wondering where I am taking you?

Well what eventually happened to that car?  Did it breakdown?  Did it go to the junkyard or maybe you just sold it and got something newer a little nicer?  Upgrade those options?

Well let's say that car is your body the shell or physical being that you call self.  Would you drive it harder than you should, push the limit or maybe even do silly things?  I spent some time last night watching a video on sugar.  The fact is that I am one of those people that do some of those silly things with my body.  I went to hockey tonight and skating felt like I had lead for legs.  Maybe it was the pizza I had on Wednesday?  Maybe it was not enough sleep?  I keep coming back to this video on sugar.  How does the food industry get away with putting HFCS (high fructose corn syrup) in everything?  Fructose and Sucrose not good things for you or your body.  

So more to the point I have lived in denial the last year and half or so.  I fell off the wagon and have had a very hard time curbing my love for an ice cold soda.  Not that I drink 5 or 6 a day.  I am more of a 1 a day sort of guy.  I like one during the lunch or maybe on the weekend.  I am tired of fighting this craving.  I have spent the past 2 months working to cut back this intake.  I have cut it by half.  but Now I am going to cut that back again.  I am working towards maybe one every so often.  I think a person can still have one every now and again.  But the daily intake will stop. It is one of those things for me, I know what needs to be done and I had it under control and then boom stress or work or something pushed me and off the wagon I went.  So time to get back on.  That is right I have this first car, my body.  I have certainly not always treated it the right way but it is time.  Taking control and putting an end to this out of control desire.  I hate it and I know it is simply mind over matter.  So this weekend I will focus on cutting back  so that next week we will reduce the intake by half again.  and then in March it will be half again.  and so on. 

So as for the title of this post?  Me, my body, the physical being that is me is my first car, it is also my only car, I will continue to work on improving what is happening to it.  Yoga, healthy foods, hockey, biking, calm positive thoughts and grateful feeling for who I am and what I have.

Make sure you are taking care of that first car.  It is amazing what can happen if you do.

peaceful simple honest love

Hello World....uh hello?

So again much time has passed since I posted and I can't really say if there is any particular thing that makes me want to post but I am ready to write again.  I have for the most part found my stride, I have to say I have not felt this good in a long time.  Almost finding balance, peace with myself.  Hard to do  sometimes as we are so busy with this that and the other thing.  I am really focused on doing things that make me happy, I even have my wonderful wife keeping me in check when I start to slip a bit.  No room for the negative, none.  I have been focused on the "now".  That and "gratitude".  You know the start of the year the word was change, it was what I wanted from myself, a change to the positive and to find that balance of peace and lightness.  Trust me the tests have been out there but in front of me, yes there are moments but I have pushed past them with a great amount of pride. I think in the big picture it just feels like a different time for me.

So let's see what we have to report on, well I have been doing yoga and that definitely has exposed the physical need to strengthen and focus/calm my mind and body.  Wow, who thought sitting on a mat would be so hard.   Yeah right, watching some people bend in stretch in ways that make me grimace just thinking about them.  But I focus on me, and what I am doing.  The best part is my wife is there with me, we are doing this together, I have found this wonderful reconnection with Traci. It is an amazing feeling, just love it.  Anyway nobody needs the mushy stuff.  The Girl is on the count down to 18, she is under 2 weeks away.  Hard to believe she will be 18 but it is true.  She is such an awesome girl, amazing kid.  The young man has just come out of his first pole vault competition this past week, he and I are bachelors this week as Traci is in sunny hot phoenix with her Mom staying at my parents place.  Not sure but I think the US economy will get a resurgence of some sort with those 2 down there shopping.  Good for them, little girl time.

So photography my new found passion, I have some news, I am officially spending too much on lenses.  you heard it here.  I was allowed to spend a bit of cash on a dream lens for me.  It is not new but it is awesome.  I have to sell a few things to make it work but that is the trade off.  The best part is this is the lens I was hoping to have when I go to NY in a month.  See that is how awesome my wife is she said go for it, just make it work she knows it means a lot to me.  That is the wonderful part of this life I have.  Love, family and health.

Anyway, things are moving along we are hoping to start the plans for the Kitchen reno, omg that will be a big one for us.  But I am so looking forward to how that will come together.

well take care everyone more news to come I am sure.

Back to it in style....

Hello again.  Back at in style.  That is right I am back to ramble and muse.  Seems like a long time since I have had time to remove the thoughts in my head.  Simple pleasures in the past few weeks.  I have been working quite hard at getting back to normal.  Playing hockey, riding my bike in the basement.  Planning a small trip that sort of thing.

Now most of the time I am not too concerned about the simple pleasures they are all around us we typically do not see them.  But I have become very aware of them the past few weeks.  I notice things that are not always apparent.  Since my better half needed a yoga partner I have started that activity.  Not a simple pleasure really but you know I have started to notice things like sitting up straight.  Yes I can hear all the mothers out there going I told you.  But you know how great it feels to straighten up and breath.  Wow simple pleasure.

I have found some common ground on the photo and ps side with my better half.  She is doing a project life thing this year.  So I am trying to help her out.  I find us sitting in the den working on photos and talking.  Simple pleasure.  Rocks.

I have been focused on Change this year.  For me it is finding my inner peace and finding a positive path to move down.  I honestly have found that there are some situations this year that would have pushed me too far.  I have handled them with a different attitude and different energy.  I can honestly say it feels great to be in this mindset.  Life has a way of pushing on us and we need to find a way sometimes to shed that weight.  I am very positive and very calm inside right now.  Feels awesome.  Simple pleasure.

So looking ahead I see we have Valentines day coming.  Hmmm what to do?  Well the better half is heading to phoenix for few days of sun and shopping hopefully the loonie survives and she can find some deals.  The other major event is the girl, she is 18 this month.  Big day!  Hard to believe that we are at this stage but it feels great and she is such a wonderful person.  We will see how she feels about 18 as it has been a big part of her focus.  Being in university and being the last person to turn 18 some how her birthday has turned into a major event in the dorm.  Too funny.

Well breathe deep,

Peace