Desire

in an effort to put something meaningful together I am finding that writing things is not as easy as one thinks.  I have struggled to try and find that little bit of something interesting and convey it to the world in an intelligent way.  Most of my ramblings come to me int he middle of the day or on the train on the way home.  Not exactly the best time to try and capture those thoughts or directions that I would take a comment.

I really do want this to be a place that is interesting and somewhat worth the time to stop in and read. That being said the ability to find a topic and hold it to make a point seems to elude me at times.  I have often had little thoughts about a story about a place in time in the future where things are not very bright.  My main character is Ryan.  He is a guy trying to continue to survive in the future.  Sometimes I think he should have a partner in life and other times I think he is better as a loner.  Ryan is a guy that is collecting the only thing that is valuable which is data.  He scavenges the outskirts for parts and pieces in the hope that he finds something that he can sell or trade.  The data has been lost or abandoned.  Most companies and other institutions are broke down.  The government uses people like Ryan to collect the data that is out there to use it for "good" purposes.  In his travels Ryan decides he can no longer use his normal approach to gathering he decides to go out further beyond the safe zones and see if he can find something that will give him more renumeration.  To find that big chunk of data the mother load if you will.  What he finds is something different, data that nobody knew existed that shows him what the world is and was.  A vision of how the government pushing things onto the people.  While out past the the safety of the zone Ryan finds he is vulnerable and has to draw on who he is and what he stands for.  He has to question what he is doing and why he is doing it.  There is nobody to tell him it is wrong or right he has to decide.

Ryan is now trapped out of the zone.  He has to survive but he also learned some dangerous things.  Things that others do not want him to know.  It is here that Ryan's true challenges start.  He returns to the safety of the safe zone with this knowledge and begins to see things differently.  He does not know who to trust or what to trust.  He begins to venture back out of the zone and search and discover more about what is truly out there.

So that is my thought my story my character.  I have not developed much beyond that but I am thinking maybe somewhere there is a story in this.

Enough for now and maybe now that I have that out there I can start to build it.